Monday, February 02, 2004
Thanks to everyone who has read all my bullshit, rants and raves, whines, exclaimations and emotional vomits throughout the past what, 2.5 years? I must say now that it is time to end all this. And it really ends. There will be no more iamkelvin.blogspot.com . I figured, enough is enough and more is less and less is no doubt more. The end has come to which the beginning has ended.
With a heavy heart, thanks for the memories guys!!
Cheers.
Monday, February 02, 2004
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Saturday, January 10, 2004
There u have it folks. its that time of the night and the same period of my life again where everything comes in a one big fuck round about. Just as Starhub believes the same, I too feel that every moment has a soundtrack. And for my moment. this is it. This is my song. Come on guys, u all knw who this song is for dont you? sigh.
why do i even bother at times...argh
Warning Sign - Coldplay
A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realised
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so
A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realised
That you were an island and I passed you by
You were an island to discover
Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign
And the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
I miss you so
And I'm tired
I should not have let you go
So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
Saturday, January 10, 2004
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Thursday, January 08, 2004
Its been too long i guess.
Firstly, a happy birthday to my dear friend Justicia. Happy 18th bday! can go Zouk !
Life's been alrite i believe, however, this same feeling of shittiness and emptiness is lurking around my soul again. I mean, ive got about everything settled already, resolutions are set and good to go . Kinda numb though. Ive been feeling kinda faithless and aimless too. 10 mths more left to ORD. fuck. i cant wait.
Ive become so so insensitive to the many things around me. I dont knw if this is a repercussion of my prolonged battle with my depression issues. Ive stopped my medication for a good 5 mths already but seriously, i am very tempted when i see those pills on my table. Once consumed, i am blissful and happy. Truly happy but yet in such a contradictory manner. have been looking at the small tablets and fighting the temptation to just take the easy way out. im fighting it, or rather myself.
Ive been writing about this issue too many times already and im sick and tired of going through all these feelings and emotions again. fuck lah. Im sick and tired of my life at times too. i really want to give up. maybe its a matter of time when i just can wake up from that deep sleep again. Maybe i just dont want to wake up once i close my eyes.
-blank look-
Thursday, January 08, 2004
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Sunday, December 14, 2003
Chen passed his driving. Last Saturday was quite a killer. 2 Mercedes and 1 Chevy fighting for supremacy on the roads. heh. Needless to say, it was not my car that was leading. So kudos to Chen and yeah to us. One more driver, one more car. I can step back and relex already. no point being the duty driver anymore. heh heh.
So i guess, this ends my nice 3 days of leave and wow, christmas is coming soon. too soon to be exact. nothing much for me to look forward too. Doesnt matter lah. used to it already. All these loneliness and all. Oh, and Trina if u're reading this, do give me a call! let's go do dinner or something. Didnt knw u're back already.
sigh.
Sunday, December 14, 2003
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Sunday, December 07, 2003
Okie, new post. What can the most apt song for this moment in my life? Settled in nicely and just indulged in some heavy duty retail therapy. Bought my decks (YAH!!!!) after a 3 year fascination with turning tables and now, im broke. i knw, its not exactly top-end stuff(read: vestax,numark or the evergreen technics) but i bought myself a twin pair of PDT-6000s and a VMX-100 twin channel BPM assist mixer. But im happier. That's good. Now, for the vinyls.and a self made 24-7 Global Underground T-shirt.(terence, we should get down doing this t-shirt)
To end it off, i leave u again with a song.
And of course, it's 3 Doors Down.
"Here Without You"
A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lies have made me colder
and i don't think i can look at this the same
but all the miles that seperate
disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it's only you and me
the miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello
i've heard this life was overrated
but i hope that it gets better as we go
i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it's only you and me
everything i know,and anywhere i go
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
and when the last one falls
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it's only you and me
Sunday, December 07, 2003
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